Because my girlfriend is wonderful. Because my girlfriend is amazing. Because my girlfriend loves me. Because my girl friend forgives me. Because my girlfriend is possibly one of the most amazing people on the planet … I am not feeling the hate. Nope. I’m feeling the warm, tingly sensation of wuv. Twue wuv. A dweam with in a dweam.
But seriously, she really helped me alay my fears and feelings that I’ve been having the past few days. ::sigh:: She is so much more than I deserve. She would argue that point but seriously she is amazingly good to me. So good to me it sometimes (like recently) makes me feel ashamed. I worry. I fret. And ultimately learn that most of it was wasted energy. It is something that I am really not used to, things going this well. I like it. But it feels … sorta weird. Almost like you’re looking around for the firecracker in the cigar. Or for the curtain to raise up and reveal that it was all a big reality TV show hoax. ::ponders the last one:: Hm. That one would take some time … and probably even some therapy to get over. But it’s not now. And I have very good reason to believe that it is not going to be. ::looks to heaven:: Thank you. ::looks at girlfriend:: Thank you. ::looks around:: You all are wonderful. Heh. I’m feeling pretty good right about now. It’s … kinda nice … weird. But nice! ::huggggggggggggggggggggggggggs:: Yay. Have a great day all. Best of luck on all your finals.