This one has been hard to fully accept. I’m accepting my flaws more, but sometimes I get hung up on them. It’s an old problem and it is one that seems to affect creative types. Ze Frank great quote “Perfectionism may look good in his shiny shoes. But a little bit of an a**hole and no one invites him to their pool parties.” I would say that perfectionism is not just an a**hole he’s a bully and will beat the life and joy out of you … if you let him. If you stand up to him, accept that you will never be perfect he becomes more like that one coach who believes in you so much that wants to push you to be even better. But you can’t let him become a bully again, let your quest for improvement be that, and not a quest for perfection, because that is an unattainable goal.

These are calls to action, and action is rarely perfect.

This drawing was done in “one take” there was very little planning and no erasing. My goal was to let it exist as it came out no more no less. It just happened to work out really well for what I was trying to express.

Here is Ze Frank’s video – it’s rather good (NSFW – Language)

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Day 6 – I am not perfect and that’s ok

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This is the start of my project of self affirmation. The first week or so will be more fundamental statements about myself. As I go on I will probably release my sense of humor a bit more. I wanted to start with fundamental statements because you can’t build anything without a foundation.

So this is where I begin, I am my own person. I cannot be anyone else but me, and I need to be at peace with that. I am myself, strengths and flaws.

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Day 1 – I am my own person.

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30 Days of “I …”

While talking with my lovely, and insightful, wife about my previous post about fear and failure we ventured deeper and tried to root out the source of this fear. It is in my mind set that interprets and amplifies the negative. This negativity undercuts my confidence, which feeds my fear, which keeps me in a defensive state achieving little. This also gets in the way of some ‘basic’ conversation skills like “I am” or “I believe” statements.

For some of you who have been here for awhile you may remember an earlier attempt at turning this around, my “One Positive Thing A Day” effort. And as you can see on the page it was not the success I was hoping it would be. Well I’m going to try something like it again, but with a more realistic goal – inspired by Christy. I’m scaling back from one year to one month, specifically April 2012. I’m also changing the parameters a bit. The goal to produce a hand drawn bit of type that is an “I” statement. I’m feeling inspired by Kyle Steed and Sean McCabe. The images will go up as is, be it messterpiece or masterpiece, by 10 PM (PST er GMT -8 or is that PDST buh time change).

So here’s the rundown:

Goal: Create a piece of hand drawn art for each day of April, as a meditation on how and whom I am.

Time: 30 days

What do I hope to accomplish:

  • Meditate & focus on positive self affirmation
  • Make more art
  • Practice expressing myself with conviction
  • Foster a more holistic view of myself
  • Want to do something and complete it

What am I trying to defeat:

  • My need to devalue myself
  • Lack of art/image making
  • My inner critic
  • The atrophy of my creative muscles
  • The feeling of being a failure if I don’t do it ‘perfectly’

I will start writing the statements I want to say now so that I can focus on the artwork later. While giving myself the option of changing the text at any time up until the work is posted. I’ll be posting these to my art/sketch blog and when the month is over I’ll collect them all into one page. I’ll probably also post them on my DeviantArt account too.